Before I start telling you how 3 months after carrying breathing difficulties I almost died, lets be honest for a minute. This stupid virus will be around forever.
Oh sure, you can tell me about amazing vaccines & their upcoming improvement, about its natural disappearance after a while, great drugs that will dimmish the spread and everything you want: at the end of the day, not all countries are equal.
Indeed, in a travelling world some regions of the world will still circulate it and pass it on. Even if it will be drastically reduced because we are wildly vaccinating big chunks of the developing worlds (and I’m leaving to the side the whole debate on successful vaccinations and mutating variants and all the new dramas we hear every day), well even then, we will still find it around (or variants of it).
Ebola is still around despite a vaccine, isn’t it? (2014-2016 outbreak). I only believe in people’s adaptation or in herd immunization, not so much in vaccines that seem to chase the tail of a monkey infinitely as the virus variates (flu vaccine apparently took 30 yrs to be stabilized and its regularly updated and STILL we have people getting the flu despite their yearly vaccination). Anyhow, nothing its perfect nor it will ever be, so lets dive deep into the facts of a pandemic that seems to creates way more damage than the ‘old, vulnerable, at risk person’ that we need to protect collectively.
I will tell you about my own experience and cannot speak for others, and before I start, I’d also like to make a disclaimer and state that: I’m not a doctor and anything you find here, its not a medical advice.
My AHA MOMENT – learning about Multisystem Inflamatory Syndrome
I woke up one day recently and I saw an article on social media about a 9 yr old who died from what they called “covid-19 complications’. I normally don’t read sensationalist or fear-generating news but this time for some reason, I clicked on it. I was almost about to attack and comment : “BS, stop spreading fear and exceptions! And we don’t die from Covid we die from underlying causes. Highlight that!” Man, did I know what I was talking about…. I didn’t troll on it and instead opened it and read it because I don’t want to be one of those jerks trolling before reading.
As a matter of fact, I have been very vocal and defensive about main stream media and how they phrase death reports accusing them of not giving us the full picture or exaggerating the deaths counts for political reasons. I even had flights book in 2020 and was SO READY to jump on the plane thinking I’m part of the safe population and most of this is a circus (although not a fan of conspiracy theories either, I’m still not). I always believed though this is only attacking the vulnerable, the sick or the elderly person. I never believed the media for telling us completely the truth behind younger & less young people’s deaths but life humbled me down in no time.
As I read through the article, I read the symptoms that strangely I have been carrying for months with no diagnosis and reduced my life to a zombie sometimes unable to walk, talk or sit normally without feeling im about to pass out from breath difficulties and stomach pressure. These symptoms almost killed me and have been present for about 5 months now. As I read the article, I’m in shock. I freak out and wanted to go the hospital ASAP to check my vital organs because after reading the story, as I came up now with the diagnosis: Multisystem Inflammatory Syndrome – MIS. Usually, MIS is only present in children but recently, the biggest discovery, is that the Multisystem Inflammatory Syndrome is also present in adults -this is a very recent finding (January 2021, Im unable to find previous testimonials on it before it (for adults)).
What is Multisystem Inflammatory Syndrome or MIS?
MIS is an inflammatory syndrome that we find mainly in children as I said – now we find evidence they exist as well in younger adults and adults- and consists in mild to severe symptoms such as multiorgan damage, abdominal pain, nausea, vomiting, heart racing, low blood pressure (close to fainting or literally fainting), or above normal blood pressure, headaches, blurred vision, blurred cognitive functions, extreme fatigue, chest pain / heaviness, breathing difficulties, exercise intolerance, temperature variation/fever on and off, skin rushes, stomach /digestive system pain, liver inflammation, puffy eyes, conjunctives, etc. (CDC Gov)
We also call this syndrome Post-accute Covid19 syndrome, long covid or Kawasaki Illness symptoms.
You can have all of them at once or only some, in my case all of them apply but I didn’t have skin rushes and I had the LBP-very low blood pressure (not the high) 90/60; the only thing that curiously worried my *amazing* doctor actually and made her consider taking me immediately to the hospital. (I declined because I have a history of LBP and I just thought I had another crisis, although since my teenage years it hadn’t been so severe). Given that all beds were taken at the hospital, with dying covid patients, it thought it was a good idea to decline anyway.
We still don’t have all the data out there and there’s still a long way to go to understand the damages this illness can cause, but having all these symptoms checked like this, it was simply incredible.
First time in months I read something that spells out all my difficulties and now you can ask me : 1)how come google didn’t suggest info about this when searching for my symptoms and 2)didn’t you know that covid can leave these symptoms? I have no idea for the first question apart for the possible lack of documentation still prevalent not boosting this info yet (unless you search specifically “long covid”- which I didn’t think I had because I didn’t have the super obvious symptoms nor a test done. More info for these questions below.
I HAD COVID TWICE (at least) BUT DIDN’T KNOW IT TIL LATE
First time, it was in December 2019. My work was in an international school with a large Wuhan student population and the semester packed with students had started in September 2019. Evidence shows today after numerous local investigations, that the pandemic existed already in Wuhan, in fall 2019 if not before so in Switzerland we must have been the first exposed- my state became the no1 in cases and later the country became amongst the Top 3 most infected countries.
500 students in a small bubble school with no room at the food court, winter season, students not wearing masks and coming sick with fever to cook for their hospitality classes (and serving us (the staff and students)) I used to see them almost every day. My office was close to the infirmary so I was assisting these ones to find their way. I fell sick starting with an aggressive coughing that lasted 2 weeks and prevented me to sleep at night (especially when laying down), fever for 3-4 days and a 10 days sick leave as it crashed me pretty badly thinking I never had such a bad ‘flu’ in my live to take a 10 days sick leave. Back to work I had lost my voice and the coughing continued for another week at least.
A few months later when the world became more aware about it, I joined the dots and understood that I had gotten it already. In that hot bubble, I’m surprised I lasted 2 months though. I usually disinfect my hands all the time so I must have caught it otherwise.
Anyhow, about the second time now. Second time, must have been a completely different version because seemingly I was asymptomatic or slightly symptomatic, that’s why I didn’t take a test nor go to the hospital. I was feverish very lightly on and off and had a runny nose (still going on now for months), like I caught a cold or something. Muscle pain and fatigue was there, but hey nothing to worry about.
And then, the symptoms developed in a weird way, starting with liver pain, fainting, gallbladder inflammation (presence of bilirubin in blood tests), upper belly ache, kidney pain, back pain, uterus pain, passing out when walking or standing up, very dizzy, and heart racing. They settled in over time, making doctors confused & speculative about it trying on me all sorts of treatments.
My first visit was in emergency to the gynecologist because I suddenly felt like a lower belly attack on my ovaries and uterus. All the lower part inflammated, especially when standing up or moving position. All tests were clear, he got no clue what’s going on. He mentioned ‘intestines sensitivity’ and gave me some naturopathy drops. I almost passed out when walking out his cabinet, but I was supposedly ‘fine’.
Then to my GP doctor. She took my temperature, it was a bit high but not alarming to her just yet and did a body consultation, my pain was acute in the upper abdomen part this time and constant in my right lower back (especially at night). Blood tests came out ‘normal’ (despite an intoxication with Vb12 because I had taken too many drops apparently thinking I was Vb12 deficient due to extreme fatigue symptoms which I tried to compensated with more Vb12 (I’m plant based eater). This didn’t seem to worry her at all so she concluded that I must be passing kidney stones (responsible generally for giving pain across all abdominal organs and lowerback) and prescribed a ton of strong pain killers mix.
Back home things didn’t get better with pain killers and breathing difficulties intensified. I couldn’t return to her office as she as full with covid cases and felt too fragile to be in that setting, so we had a phone call. She said then that “it must be stress-based or long covid symptoms but it’d be too late to go do a test 2 months after the first symptoms.
So I sucked it up and relied on myself only to get better. I have been failed by doctors SO MANY times in my life that at that point I couldn’t trust the medical body anymore. How can anyone trust them when they are so clueless but act as if they know? And you pay the bill for their experiments on you- more on that in a special article as there’s lots to say).
After 3 months of these on & off symptoms, I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE
About 3 months after my first emergency doctor visit (I had 3 emergency visits in total with no conclusive outcome), and trying to help myself get better through on & off symptoms (but still inability to walk medium to long distances or do any type of exercise as usually that would trigger even more all my vital organs inflammation), one day, I became suddenly out of breath and couldn’t breathe anymore. It was a chilled Saturday, I was doing nothing to trigger it and I was in a calm state. Every air intake seemed inefficient suddenly and my heart was racing more and more. I opened the window to catch a deep breath of fresh air; it didn’t work. I tried to regulate my breathing; it didn’t work. I couldn’t catch my breath. I panicked. I called my mum and told her to take me to the hospital NOW.
I kept her on the phone for some reason, maybe because I was not ready to go the hospital. I was not ready to die. I had a mental blockage. A huge fear. A death anticipation and apprehension of being locked up in quarantine there and never come back. Just like me friends had. Their story traumatized me (well families’ accounts). So in that panic, all I was thinking is that my house was a mess for those who would clean it after I died, that I couldn’t leave right now, not like that, I “didn’t do my luggage”, I was saying! Don’t ask me, no idea what that meant, but I felt I had to pack some luggage for the trip (symbolically speaking), you just don’t leave like that, do you?
At that point I really didn’t want to go the hospital. I’d rather die home. Near loved ones. I don’t want to be killed by respirators and quarantined away from any human contact – well that’s a killing accelerator, isn’t it?
I started to pray and call in for divine help. Soon after that, miraculously, my breathing became better, the heaviness on the chest lightened up and I soon fell asleep. Next day I was fine. I was still in disbelief of what happened and SO VERY GRATEFUL to still be alive, home and have another chance to ‘make by baggage’ & be ready for an expected trip.
RECOVERY FACILATATED BY MANY IMPORTANT FACTORS
I noticed in this long illness journey that some things were helping and making a difference and some others didn’t. So I capitalized on those that helped and did more of them. These can help you too but each one of us is built differently and may need to find their own recipe in the healing journey. I will state here what helped me and I’m sure a couple of things at least with help you too. You can at least try them.
Reminder: *This is not medical advice and I’m not a doctor. This is my own personal experience only. If you experience these type of symptoms please seek immediate medical help and do all the tests. There are inflammation markers in the blood that can be detected and the medical treatment involves immunoglobines and glucocorticosteroids (generally use for Kawasaki)*
This one was my no1 life savior. Infinitely more efficient than strong pain killers and anti-inflammatory medication. It alleviated my symptoms especially in the first weeks of the symptoms. It made it bearable to talk and walk a bit without passing out. I live in Switzerland and here CBD is legal under 1% THC. I took a couple of drops a day without THC at all, try it out. CBD oil had so many benefits that I can’t event start here. It’s a miracle naturopathy medication but shuuu, pharma doesn’t want you to know this (again no medical advice here).
- NATUROPATHY for my Stomach inflammation. I took IBEROBLAST 10 drops after a meal to ease the digestion aggravating symptoms and it made a big difference. (Any phytotherapy tint you’d take for Irritable Bowel Syndrome basically).
As everything is Energy and illness is blocked energy in the body, we need to allow the natural smooth flow back into our bodies. For this, we unblock congested places intentionally, physically, mentally and spiritually with different healing techniques that involve energy work.
I found QI GONG to be to most efficient and yoga (even light yin yoga) to be the least efficient (even aggravating). Qi Qong is a form of Thai QI, slow conscious movement practice that focuses on different organs & pressure points. We guide our attention and movements so it releases blockages through coordinated breath and awareness. Mixing it with meditation on the 3 energy points that we call dantiens), making space for its going on and sending signals of peace & full acceptance, with a inner cosmic smile are literally miracle practices. Nothing worked more than combining these two, so I highly recommended it. There are many times of Qi Qong, I advise you to use the softer and most traditional techniques, that feel extremely natural and effortless when you are doing them. You want to do some movement to regulate the inner energy and not stress the body at the same time. You go mindfully into it.
This will not only result into physical improvement but also mental and emotional improvement which play a massive part in healing.
Learn to breath deep and slow and help the lungs to function to their full capacity. I used forceful breathing (rapid belly breaths to empty my lower lungs at max and also slower breath to encourage fluid oxygenation. You also want a straight spine and not bend over or squeeze your belly, you want to open the abdomen as much as possible to ease the inflammation and not press against it.
I cannot emphasize enough the role of your thoughts in generating a favorable body state for self-regulation and healing. Thoughts create emotions, emotions create a vibrational state in the body that either boosts your immune system / response or impairs it. You are in control of what signals you want to send to your body and how you talk to it and feel about it ability to WORK WITH YOU. In the second chapter of my book FREEDOM PATHS – On your Body- I tell a story about how I literally came back to life by controlling my thinking and my emotions (and breathing as a result) and regained consciousness. You must learn to work with your body in a mindfully way making room for what’s there and sending encouraging thoughts just like you would do with a baby who hurt itself. Obviously fear creates tension so you don’t want to go against the flow but kindly WITH it.
Different postures helped.
Sleeping on the belly for some reason felt better.
During the day when you get out of breath, kneel down, come forward, lift your bum and put ur head down on your hands. 2/3 of the oxygen used by the lungs is stored in the lower lungs part. I read a testimonial of someone who made it out of severe pneumonia at the hospital by being lifted by the legs, head down and left in this position for a while (this is not known or common practice in the medical world apparently). This was according to him life-saving because his lungs were full of fluids and destined to die. The link of the video where he commented is here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4J0d59dd-qM&t=28s
- SOCIAL & ENVIROMENTAL CONTROL
A toxic, full of stress, discord or agitated people will make it obviously worse. But we SO OFTEN underestimate social and environmental factors. An anxiety-raising environment weakens our own defense mechanisms and floods the body with detrimental stress hormones that causes significant damage over time. We want high frequency surroundings and protect our weak state to give the body the energy it needs to fight back.
Some foods that are known to cause inflammation and digestion difficulties such as animal products, gluten, processed foods and sugar will make it worse as well. I rarely eat these but when I do, I have a massive liver & stomach attack that can last for days affecting all the other already inflammated organs! So juices, fresh veggies, plant based stuff (some beans can be harmful), low fat and low sugar, unprocessed foods are GREAT.
Chronic fatigue will be around and it will be very difficult in the first months even years. I suspect my chronic fatigue became well obvious after my first infection in December 2019. I needed to sleep over 10 hours at least daily and was so incredibly drained generally; you simply need to allow your body that. You need to let it rest, recover and sleep as much as it needs. It helps when you are your own boss or work from home, as you can more fully self-care. If you have a demanding job, family or children you really need to delegate for some time otherwise you will not be able to help any longer or never again. Its that serious.
I was so scared not to be able to be fit again, that I started to push myself a little intuitively knowing that if I don’t do so, I will never be able again to come back to previous fitness levels. And I was right because apparently that’s what we need to do officially. But in my discovery and learning process, I made big mistakes and often triggered more inflammation and passing out moments that almost killed me, because of my impatience and underestimation of what was going on (example :doing the yoga candle or the bridge, that seem sort of harmless but hell they are!-or walking for more than 15 min.) You need to go step by step with increasing difficultly and challenge and not push your lungs, ever! Its very dangerous and I did that (a little yoga session) a day before dying almost and wanting to go the Emergency Care Unit.
Water drinking, almost all the time, had massive beneficial effects. 2 liters at least per day in the form of ginger lemon teas, green tea and filtered water (I use zerowater* filters as they remove ALL toxins in the water).
USING INTUITION or PSYCHIC SKILLS AS LIFE SAVIOURS
Now, this part is not for everyone. Some are advanced on their spiritual journey or do not even want to get in touch with their intuition and some will be highly critical of what I will tell, so they better skip this part.
For those who know me and read me often, you know my IndigoPsychology channel is about Spirituality and tapping into your Intuition and Inner knowing. It also talks about energy work, tarot reading and psychic abilities. Well that’s what Indigos are about. They are in touch with the invisible world and with their intuition and read & feel things very deeply around them.
When you are sick these abilities are impaired for obvious energetical reasons and you don’t read things properly. You are also scared and so tired that you can barely read your mind messages leave alone intuitive, subtle, outside messages.
But at the same time, the body being more sensitive and the mind working less, you can listen much more and much better with your body.
This is called clairsentience. This is what helped me the most to get answers for my illness. I used my body as a channel to receive and react to certain questions when faced with a truthful answer, tarot card or hidden words that I put upside down on a sticky note so I don’t get influenced by the answer or my own projection and fears, but by my body signals who already knows.
If you are a hypersensitive person as per Dr Aaron Research, you can use this tool to your GREAT ADVANTAGE AND IN MIRACULOUS WAYS! I 100% MEAN IT.
A technique that I intuitively developed it’s the upside-down answers panel reading. You write a few options as answers, ask your question in a genuine heart-felt way, and you exclusively let your body react to it. You need to be as neutral as possible and trust that the body will give you some reaction. For some, these ‘reactions’ are so full of information that they will be able to see images as well or the hidden answer with all the panel of emotional that it brings, before turning them and reading them. For others, the hand will slightly shake or you’ll feel an electrical impulsion through your hand and body when you put your hand above it.
The practice of meditation includes knowing to listen to your body and notice the subtle changes without wanting to change them but invite them more, making space for them with a curious and welcoming spirit. You do the same with the tarot cards you lay down or the notes you put upside down.
So, I started with putting a bunch of options for what would help me, what I needed to do, what type of tests we needed to do to dig deeper and each and every time I had the right answers. First of all, I know they are RIGHT because I do 2-3 validations and I repeat the reading to see if I have the same answers consistently or the same cards/ written notes coming out. Second, because I see the results when I follow that advice.
The main reason I didn’t go for a test or to the hospital when I was to my lowest (except my distrust towards the medical world & my body knowledge) is that I consistenly channled messages and cards that guided me alllll the way through. For example, in my panick moments:
- I was told to “have faith”, “Healing energy is on the way”, and that “I know what I need to do”
- And that I’m “on the right way”, “not to worry” and “heath is improving” and ‘patience’ is required as all things happen in ‘Divine Order’
Out of 55 card decks, what are the chances that these same cards jump out all the time?! It just an example.
I made my own cards with specific questions that I had, and man, did they came out in the most accurate way (validated in the next days)- I ‘ll pass the thousands of examples I have with this practice today to focus on the main subject.
But another example that was truly astonishing is when my doctor wanted me to do a CT scan, I refused 4 times. I was sure it would be harmful to me sensitive energy filed and they wouldn’t see anything. I just KNEW it. You know these things when you practice meditation and inner listening at lot. It becomes easy flowy knowledge.
I later found out, when google it, that CT scans are the worse radiation source out there. 100x the normal radio you take to see if you broke a bone. 100x ! I also found out that over 20 scans ( I say 3 at most) in a lifetime, it becomes a serious cancer risk (or significantly increased risk) according to the American Association of Radiologists. If the professionals themselves say it, and they make a living of that, you cut by 50 % at least their statements as a decent safety practice. Anyhow, regardless of all this, I asked if I had to do this to help my doctor find out what’s going on and if my lungs and belly was ok with no structural or obvious markers for anomalies. The answer was 10 times : BIG NO. DO NOT. NOT FOR YOU. And RECONSIDER. I mean all cards were consistently giving me the same CLEAR MESSAGE.
So what do you do? You thank, Spirit and Respect the guidance. So I skipped the scan (for the 4th time) and asked for an IRM instead. (Harmless, sound based only). When I got to the scan center, the radiologist said: “ok, if you insist will do an IRM”. But when I was put on the rolling table, with a medical cloth on all ready to go in, I asked distrustfully: “Is this an IRM machine?” she said awkwardly bumbling her words: “Humm, no, this is a ….a CT scan” with a big *innocent* casual smile and a red embarrassed face.
I lost it: I stood up and went mad. ‘I said an IRM not a CT scan! What are you thinking!” she basically tried to put me on a CT scan because” it takes only 5 min vs an IRM 2 to 3 hours, what’s the problem? This is also very precise and better for you and what you have…” I lost it at these justifying words again.
They decided what’s best for them time wise, money wise and health wise. I walked out telling her to be ashamed of herself for betraying clients and radiating, if not killing them, so easily for time & costs effective methods. I told her that I knew there’s a lifetime limit for CT scans and she should first CHECK the patients didn’t already reach that limit, but they never ever cared. Each scan increases your chances to develop cancer. This is official information. Especially of the upper body where vital organs are, because they reproduce faster that other parts of the body so they can transfer the modified radiated DNA much faster into the body. To be taken seriously!
I already had over 7 CT scans in my life and my body cant take more, I know it. Other things keep radiating us so we should stay away as much as possible of unnecessary CT scans if NO OTHER ALTERNATIVE of course.
When you see what happened with this radiology center, who tried to sneakily have me on a CT scan, you understand the big warning. As soon as I walked out of there, my chest pain lifted, I wasn’t puffed out, I didn’t feel like passing out or vomit, I was kind of normal. Yet I was very mad ! but my body vanished the handicaps very impressively after I threw my medical cloths at them and told my truth.
This is to me the Reward you get when you follow your OWN INNER VOICE and respect yourself, your intuition and the messages you get from Spirit. I mean, that was the ultimate test of faith choosing “ those” who guided & helped me a life time, versus the medical ‘experts’ who supposedly “want the best for you”. Validation people, validation….
Never ever underestimate the power of Spirit /God/Energy Source/Universe/Life Force/QI/Intuition/Inner Knowing or whatever you want to call it. Look beyond the physical world and learn to read the Energy world in & out and it will significantly change not only your heath but your whole life.
Multisystem Inflamaroy Syndrome is a serious condition. You may have no ovious covid symptoms and still develop a ‘long covid’ form that it can range from mild to extreme, so this should be monitored closely and treated early. You need to push your own intuition through and demand doctors to test deeply without accepting their speculative approach on you and put you on differnet sets of medication hoping it will work.
While CT scans can be helpful in the diagnostic process for any illness, make a count of how many you had and do not hestitate to ask for IRM as alternatives even if they push you to CT scans for any reason out there. IRMs are as good (even if not as detailed) to point out any abnomalie in the organs so there’s no reason to pass it.
Work with your body and get to KNOW your body. The more you do so, the more it will show you how to help it. You alone are the expert of your own body and no one can know it as well as you. Journal on it, meditate, be curious about its limits, sensitivties, sublte daily messages that guide you to waht you really need to be efficient. This will lead you to develop your intuition as well and work more effeciently with doctors by directing them in the right direction.
The virus mutates, new varients and responses appear and we still know very little about it. Rmain cautious. Even if vaccines are distrubuted massivaly, treat them as a partial possible protection but dont get your defenses down. I have always been mindful with hygene and often desingest my hands but obviously we need extra caution. As a collective we will evolve in a new & better direction as a result of this pandemic sharing my experince is not meant to alarm or depress you but to empower you to take your power back, discover your body and hopefully connect more strongly with your intuition. Stay safe, be well.